A goddess' shining light...

Sigh, sigh sigh.....

For all my complaining, despite all my problems and dark days, I keep finding my shining light always there waiting for me, ready to give me his shoulder, his arms, his listening ear, his advice... Always there, always ready.

I don't know what I did to deserve this... And for once, I'm glad I did whatever it is I did. I'm not taking this for granted.

He's amazing in so many ways. He's told me things that noone else would tell me, stuff that so many people should have told, but no one has.... What touched me was how he said it and what provoked him to say it. I may be wrong, but he was looking into the future and trying to tell me what would make that future happen. That he was thinking that far ahead surprised me.

And it took time, but I could finally understand why he's afraid of getting married. He didn't say it, but a part of me wonders if he's trying to tell me something. He wants to be sure, and I don't blame him... I'm afraid of getting married for the same reasons...

What scares me.. I can so easily imagine myself growing old with him. He's so caring so loving, so sweet... perfect in so many ways. Oh, he has his flaws.... As do I... I can live with his though I do sometimes get a lil irate. And he lives with mine....

Growing old with him... as easily as I can stay young with him.

I wonder if he's reading this.. If he is, then he should know he makes me feel safe and content and I could not ask for anything more. I've not felt love the way I feel it from him. I hope it stays this way for a long time more.