Aint it fun.....

If you bought Spaghetti Incident, you'd know what I'm talking about.

Isnt it also so strange that when you're moody, you want the entire world to know about it. But when you're happy, you're so content to just sit in your little space in the world and smile at everything and everyone?

It troubles me to know that there are people that can never be moody, that never break. That there are swines out there, who grumble about their jobs, their families, their income, that they're to poor, that they don't have a big house, etc, etc and so forth. Did you know that the happiest people on earth are from the poorest nation on earth?

I've got a cushy job (that takes me away from everything, even myself), a huge paycheck (that gives me more worry than ever), a close knit family (that's so close it feels I'm being strangled), a fantastic boyfriend (that I'm wary of being my problems to), a great boss (who demands so much so fast, I feel I'm drowing).....

Yes, so you say, why am I not happy.... highlight that last paragraph with your mouse and read it again.

Don't fool yourself ... not all smart, rich, spoilt kids are happy.... not a single one of us are...

I'm tired of trying to feed everyone's fancies and making everyone see what I'm not. I've given up. I'm neither pretty, nor smart, nor a good girlfriend, nor a good daughter, nor a good sister. I'm not even a good person. My place on this earth has gotten smaller, my time's shorter.

I can't stand that swine that said he's only getting paid 2 .5 k a month. Here, I get 4k. Take it... I'm looking for a job that pays less but makes me happier... I'm working all day and all night in a job that I can't stand... You're welcome to take that too. Ohh yeah, I've also got ferragamo shoes, planning to get a pair ofJimmy Choos... would you like those too? Oh and, yeah I forgot, I was planning to save up and buy the new mazda MX-5. Yeah, you're thinking, well at least you can really think of that. Well, you can too, what with my 4,ooo a month pay check. Take it, its your dream right... Take it...Just leave me enough to buy my liquid poison, my Jack, Johnny and Jim. You take the rest....and leave me alone.....

I'll be happy in a one bedroom flat, with a loving boyfriend (note I did not offer him away). No kids, no noise, no stress...

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