A Letter to a Past
Dear XXXXX,
Do you know how difficult it is to see you with someone else now?
I allowed myself to feel something for you. Its something I rarely do. I let my emotions overrule my head. I let myself fall deeper and deeper into your arms and into your trap.
You said you' d always be mine. You said I'd always be the girl you'd want to be with. Remember what you said to me? You said I could always depend on you. And you were worried that I might abandon you. So I stayed closer, I hugged tighter, I kissed sweeter. I did whatever I could to make you feel safe in my arms. I gave you a place to come to when you needed a shoulder to cry on. I gave you a place to come to when you wanted nothing more than a hug. I become the company that you constantly craved.
Then one day you decided to pull away. You suddenly didn't want me anymore. My hugs didn't comfort you, my kisses didn't make you smile. My company was wanted less and less. And then one day, your favourite hug, the one I saved just for you, it was met with a frown and crossed arms. There was no smile. No hug back. You didn't even turn around to kiss me.
At that moment, I knew it was over. My own heart broke. Invisible tears ran down my cheeks. But I kept my smile on my face, pretending I knew it was coming. I shrugged it off, but my head was spinning. I was losing you, ... No, at that moment, I knew I had lost you. Everything I ever did wrongly suddenly filled my mind. If I could have turned back time.
I'm still trying to understand. And noone wants to tell me. How could you have broken my heart? I did everything I could to make you feel safe. And in the end, you abandoned me. I don't know how much I felt, or how deep it was. But I do know that I miss you; your company, your smile.
I see you smiling at her, talking to her the way you used to talk to me. I hear the pet name I used to call you. But it wasn't from my mouth. I saw the lipstick on your cheek. It was a shade of red I could never use.
I just hope she doesn't give you that hug. That hug is mine. I was the one that comforted you with it.
How could you have hurt me that way? I didn't deserve it. I wish you'd come back to me. Say the words you used to say. Talk to me the way you used to. I wish time could turn backwards to the days when I was going out with you. I was truly happy. Happier than I'd been in a long time.
Once yours,
A Fallen Goddess.
Do you know how difficult it is to see you with someone else now?
I allowed myself to feel something for you. Its something I rarely do. I let my emotions overrule my head. I let myself fall deeper and deeper into your arms and into your trap.
You said you' d always be mine. You said I'd always be the girl you'd want to be with. Remember what you said to me? You said I could always depend on you. And you were worried that I might abandon you. So I stayed closer, I hugged tighter, I kissed sweeter. I did whatever I could to make you feel safe in my arms. I gave you a place to come to when you needed a shoulder to cry on. I gave you a place to come to when you wanted nothing more than a hug. I become the company that you constantly craved.
Then one day you decided to pull away. You suddenly didn't want me anymore. My hugs didn't comfort you, my kisses didn't make you smile. My company was wanted less and less. And then one day, your favourite hug, the one I saved just for you, it was met with a frown and crossed arms. There was no smile. No hug back. You didn't even turn around to kiss me.
At that moment, I knew it was over. My own heart broke. Invisible tears ran down my cheeks. But I kept my smile on my face, pretending I knew it was coming. I shrugged it off, but my head was spinning. I was losing you, ... No, at that moment, I knew I had lost you. Everything I ever did wrongly suddenly filled my mind. If I could have turned back time.
I'm still trying to understand. And noone wants to tell me. How could you have broken my heart? I did everything I could to make you feel safe. And in the end, you abandoned me. I don't know how much I felt, or how deep it was. But I do know that I miss you; your company, your smile.
I see you smiling at her, talking to her the way you used to talk to me. I hear the pet name I used to call you. But it wasn't from my mouth. I saw the lipstick on your cheek. It was a shade of red I could never use.
I just hope she doesn't give you that hug. That hug is mine. I was the one that comforted you with it.
How could you have hurt me that way? I didn't deserve it. I wish you'd come back to me. Say the words you used to say. Talk to me the way you used to. I wish time could turn backwards to the days when I was going out with you. I was truly happy. Happier than I'd been in a long time.
Once yours,
A Fallen Goddess.
posted by goddess at 3:21 am
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